Uncertainty

i really hate the feeling i get when i'm uncertain. i really like the feeling i get when i'm certain, but still unaware. i hate the feeling i get when i know i shouldn't be wondering, and yet i am. i hate the feeling of knowing i've got no right to be wondering, and i know i'm still doing it. i hate trying to sleep, knowing i don't have any right to be wondering about things that really shouldn't concern me. i hate knowing i'm jealous, and having no real basis for that jealousy. i hate messaging people, when they don't message back. i hate thinking that there's no real reason for me to think they'd message me back. i hate not knowing if it's acceptable to call. i'm going to go upstairs and pretend to be able to sleep. i'll probably call first, and hopefully find a grateful party on the other end. i hope it's acceptable.

Comments:
1)That post right there makes you more beautiful than I could ever describe. That's all I have to say.
2)I'm of a more stable mind this morning and I still find that to be beautiful, and another sign of traits we share. I felt the need to clarify.
3)you shouldn't have, it's sweet. (me)