i never really thought this about me, but a relative said it last week (friday, on vacation), and i think it struck a chord. she said something about me being, "just how i remember, you, sarah, never able to sit still," and i think she's right. i'm twitchy, slightly. nervous. always waiting for something to happen, always expecting something, always afraid i'll miss out on it when it does. it's just how i am, and i'm getting excited now, and it's getting worse.
i can't sleep, without aids - usually the boxed variety - and that's something that makes me upset. when i wake up, i can't get back to sleep (when i'm happy, and right now, i'm on-the-verge-of-tears-happy constantly), because my mind starts moving, and i can't (or don't want to) stop it. it's so frustrating.
i feel like that donkey. you know, the one that's being made to run so fast for that carrot on the fishing pole (that's how i always saw it as a kid). there's this amazing, wonderful, indescribable thing that's right there, in front of my face, and completely out of my reach. i love it. ten days is for-eh-VER.
but i need an alternative method to falling asleep. yoga, eh? very interesting.