when i read that this morning, i didn't let myself think about it, because it was too much, i couldn't get like that before work, i blew it off.  i'm glad i saved it for now, because.. i don't think i'd have been able to leave.  i'd have kept him home from work.  knowing his reaction, and completely knowing he's genuine, it's almost too much.  i've got to reread that thing about not crying that i wrote yesterday - i wrote it for me, too.  as a reminder.  i need reminding, right now.