i can't really describe what i'm looking at, because i just know that anything i say won't give anyone the slightest clue what i'm actually feeling. it's overwhelming, and it's wonderful, and it's scary, and it's contradictory.
i mean that in a good way. i feel like i've always felt like there should be somebody out there. but after a while, i started trying to convince myself (or pretending that i thought that that was wrong. it seemed easier.
things are so hard, the little things are torture, but then again.. it's so easy. thanks for removing the almost..