i wouldn't really call myself uncomfortable, really. well, in a way, i guess. thing is, i've never been really comfortable with someone, enough to really thoroughly explore. however you decide to take that, i suppose. on another level, i know myself pretty well. i am comfortable with what i like. i'm not sure how open i am do discussion on those things with the general population. or anyone, i guess.
the way it's worked in the past: someone does something, i either like or dislike it. i generally go along with it, if it's particularly painful or uncomfortable, i put a stop to it. if it's just vaguely so, i sort of stick it out and hope it ended quickly. if it was something i liked, i would be pleased, but if it was something odd (or that i thought was), i probably wouldn't be too vocal about liking it, didn't want to look like a freak, you know. how stupid, i know.
i'm not saying that now, i've discovered how wrong that was, and i'm determined to be 100% vocal about everything from here on out. but i'm determined not to let something happen that i'm not enjoying. and if something happens that i DO like, i'll promise myself to at least say so afterwards. without a sense of what i like, how can any guy hope to please? sort of too much to ask for someone (anyone) to "just know". don't expect me to go all wild-cat without any warning, though. just because i'm turning over a new (more communicative) leaf, doesn't mean my inherent nature will change. i've never really liked being the leader. but given the reigns, and a little encouragement, i think it could be a beautiful thing.
not that i'm worried.