i've got some issues. i think that mostly they're unfounded, but that doesn't make them any less real. i hate the first time someone sees my best friend, and i know it's because of jakie. i know it's because when i was 17, she decided she wanted my boyfriend, and took him. she'd tried it before, and she tried it again, after, but this was the time when she succeeded, and it still hurts. some part of my ego will always be bruised, because of it. maybe i carry that over too much. it's made me a more jealous person than feels natural. i wish i could stop.