sometimes, it's really great to realize things about yourself. sometimes, it's even better to look around and realize that your bitchy attitude one day made someone else think twice about something. i really hated that i left that (apparently not terribly) anonymous comment. a full 24 hours later, i looked at it, and couldn't believe myself. even if i'd like to pretend that i'm the only multi-dimentional person in the world, i just can't.
here's a really nice thought that most of the people who might read this (hi.. people who don't know me!) probably won't think is as nice as i do, right now: sometimes, it's all about timing. i've been with people before, that i knew i shouldn't be, right at that slice in time.. and it felt horrible. i knew that it wasn't right, which always feels un-peachy, but more than that.. i knew that it could have been right. it's a heart-wrenching feeling. the good thing is, eventually, everyone meets someone who's at the right time, when they're at the right time, and the world seems to be spinning really fast and like molasses all at once.
i might care way too much about people i'll never ever know, but at least they know that someone's reading. maybe more important, and this i expect of them, too - will catch them on their bullshit - or (more gently than before, i promise) will gesture in it's general direction.